24.7.10

itenary


pages and pages and names and replies
you come back home.
welcome back, home
old sunglasses,
the alternative sun, 
"skies are different everywhere"
so am I
so be it if I can
explode

flick on
off
on
off


until 
one of us dies 
(would that be off?)

mind escapes romance (I love you too. I don't)
disguised lovers
linguistic orgies
your egg-shelled heart
my liquid affairs
with cities
skipping continents

the process
is a treacherous disposition 

but I'm home
like a dust
like a dust
finding the brims of a desk
to rest on
waiting for the wind
to carry beyond

the process entails sedation
it is pushing

birth
is pushing.

21.7.10

tripping

the things i lost (stolen):

1 wallet
multiple business cards, other cards, coins, cash, and more cards
1 phone
1 pair of shoes

the things i found:

surprising friends, and more
space in my head
capacity to get over lost things
overpacked luggage
fear of being alone
passion for being alone
and a view.

16.7.10

notes from p (rague)

...The word "otiose"
The word "necrophagy"

[don't look them up]

Tourists can be divided into three main categories:
a. couples (hopeful/ honeymooners/ bored and trying/ rich and retired)
b. family
c. youth groups (backpackers/ besties/ curious couplets)

And then there is me: alone . In Prague. No camera in hand. No interest in the "Touristic Info."
No sleep since two nights before.
Beer, book, and a snack. My lucky charm: a pack of Lucky Strikes. It may seem lonely or isolated ("you're traveling alone?")...but it felt like a mirage. A long dream dribbling with amazement at the surroundings and my internal stimuli. A liberation.
I was the happiest tourist of them all, in that outrageously visited, photographed, romanticized, fetishized city.
No phone to answer or miss a call on, no one to meet.
I'd get to certain areas and neighborhoods and walk/waltz/gaze around and around until I was lost and found again and lost...It's how I found my favorite cafe (bar/restaurant/bookstore) in the world, ran into the Prague castle, Kafka's birthplace, the astronomical watch, the festivals, and even took the wrong tram to the wrong side of town. It's how I got an "exotic" (yes, I dare to use that word) full body massage, started and finished a short story at a french restaurant with flowers in my food, and smiled at cuties in the museum.
My favorite city welcomed me with a scorching heat but a subtle maze-like mystery.

This precious part of the journey came after the magnetic, titillating city of off-beat laissez fair (Berlin). And that was after two weeks in the sunny-side of London.


Just to confuse you even more, I am in London again. Typing this. Looking out the river and watching the wind dance with trees...

8.7.10

I had another breathtaking moment at the museum yesterday when I encountered the honest confusion, sad contemplation, and unabashed colourful expressions of Frida Kahlo.

" So that you won't forget me..." she says.

4.7.10

what i know


life's best stories - the most horrific or the most beautiful,
are secrets. 

hey!

I've been writing a lot
I swear
Just on paper and not here

Which actually feels so much better!

Will transport soon

- From London with love